I went by a friends profile . . I browse her pictures. . . . I saw them. . a group of friends . . So happy. . I envy her for having a bunch of friends, a whole lot of school mates/classmates on a group picture . . I envy them for being so happy. . Right from the beginning I’ve never been belong to their group. . That’s one of the reasons why I fail. . Because of my insecurities. . I have failed. . Though they were not against me. . nor hated me.
I want to have that kind of bond since I was in elementary. . I want to have friends whom I can exchange txt messages or friendster comments, have a group picture with, have lunch together, watch movies together, chit chat on the classroom . . more of friend stuffs, yet that dream. .I don’t know if it still comes true. . I dont know if someone will like me now as a friend. .I am a failure, loser and a quitter. . I guess I am like this from the start and forever. . No wonder this dream will not come to real. . No one likes me now. . even before. . no one did. .
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